Dear Diary

Today I had my job interview for Hy-Vee and got a Cashier position! Yayy! Training starts Monday, 9 am.

Talked to Andrew today! Cell isn't working anymore but home number is. Andrew is considering getting a small house with Leah, and is also applying for a position at a Kraft company :D

Went clubbing with Tami and Kaiti last Friday and had a really fun time! Jake's is kind of creepy. Not a fan. Studio 13 is still awesome.

Food Diary:
1 Dietary Supplement (Women's daily vitamin thing)
1/2 raw cucumber, unpeeled
3 and 1/2 snicker doodles
2 glasses of milk
1 small bowl of mini wheats (possibly 1/2 cup of cereal, about 1/2 cup of milk)
Oyama sushi:
2 pieces of california sushi,
2 small gyoza pieces,
a few bites of salad, a small bowl of miso soup (about a cup of liquid)
, about a little less than a palm of chicken (palm being the size of my hand).
Some ramune soda (maybe half or less, sooo...5 ozs? maybe less),
and some lemonade.
Need (my guess): Iron? (more leafy greens)
Fiber (more bread), though I got some with the miniwheats

Good: Protein seems pretty covered. Calcium seems good today too, though I'm usually short. Cucumber is surprisingly rich in vitamins so that was a good call on eating that when I craved green veggie...
Bad: could have probably done with less sushi...gyoza is a fried food so that's not so good...orr...it's pan made...but it's made with oil I think. Still, both pieces were small enough to fit in my mouth at once if I wanted... overall I thought today was far less bad than I thought. Maybe too much sugar with miniwheats being frosted+ snicker doodles?

I hate being called a gamer. I didn't used to think about it, but the more people call me one, the more angry I get.

Doesn't being a gamer constitute, you know, playing more than an average amount of games? And not 'casual' games, but more intensive games? Right now I'm interested in the sims 2, again, after finding it buried in a box in the basement...and I haven't played that more than 3 hours yet.

Last week? Total amount of gaming, about 2 hours. In 3 monthes I'd only played on video game, and I didn't even get halfway through it. Not because I'm bad at it, or taking my time collecting anything; I'd just play it before bed if I wanted to.
So how the hell am I a gamer? I think, the reason is, is that I play more than my friends who either don't play at all, or who play not alot either. I think the other reason is that everyone seems to need to stick a label on something. I read WAY more books than I play video games, like an incredible amount in comparison. When I told my friend maybe she should call me a bookworm, she said "yeah but you're not REALLY a bookworm...I mean, you don't act like one" , but what?! How do I act like a gamer?! >< Actual gamers know I'm not a gamer, considering I'm not in the know on anything and only grab sometihng if it's pretty or sounds like what I'd want on the back of a book... bagh I don't know. It just feels like an insult and it's annoying.

I'd be less annoyed if it was an accurate statement...

I said it was alright, but last night I cried myself to sleep when you spoke so casually about the next girl you were planning on being with.

Maybe I am naive for thinking you would consider to move so far to live with me, but I wish you didn't come to the decision so quickly after 9 years of caring for each other.

Sometimes I wish we'd never met.

You sent me her picture, and even though I wanted to feel angry and jealous, she's just a normal girl. Kind of pretty, but not a model, not a snob, not someone I can actively say anything about...just another girl, one who lives closer, one who can actually be with you.

I just feel...disappointed. Mostly with myself, not really with you...and wistful, like I'm seeing you walk away from me and being left in the dust.

But that's what happens when you're not worth pursueing, right? You get left behind. So, I guess I just feel like everyone is moving on without me, but especially you, and no matter how fast I run I'd never catch up.

With that, though, comes the knowledge that rests inside of me saying that there's no way you could love me... no matter how practical a person, it doesn't feel..."right", to be able to brush it aside so easily. I don't know... I just wish I wasn't left behind...and I wish I loved someone else who I could be with.

Isn't it amazing, in a world full of billions of people, I managed to find you?

So I just read all the pages to a comic called Chester 5000 (NSFW!) and enjoyed it immensely. I caught the link from Dr.Voluptua (also NSFW) on a search for new things to read. There isn't much text at all, no dialogue, but it isn't necessary and it's worth a read. Maybe more a description later, but I friended the artist and I'm checking out their work now :3

On that note, I'm sending 'the monster' back today. It's been lurking in its box since I recieved it and removed it and swore to myself in fear. I'm going for a smaller size this time around...I'd talk more to my friends about it, but only one of my friends is open about sex toys and the rest seem to be of the mind set that sex toys are a no no, and they aren't really okay to talk about. It doesn't stop me trying to have more casual conversations but it limits asking for advice on things when only one is curious to try them and the other is looking for something entierely different... woe is me...

Lloyd is talking to me again so I guess that's good news. Ummm...finished inkheart and am troubled on whether I really enjoyed it or disliked it, which I usually don't encounter...but I'm going to read the second book and see how that goes.

I'm really liking the first part of the doodle entry for Clementine Laurel. I'm hoping I can get some more out of that; I'd like to pick up writing again, and I like her and mussy-head. Let's see how it goes

It wasn't that she hated him, not by any means. But throughout the years, like stones smoothed by flowing water, their subtle changes and feelings had softened and been worn away to a sort of neutrality that became creatures of habit.

The seperation was smooth; they left on almost amiable terms. More accurately, she left and conceded the house. He worried over that, but she felt only small pangs of regret for the more hasty action, though asking if it would be alright to pick up her things as soon as she'd secured a place to live. He agreed, and she'd helped him move most of them into the guest bedroom. His brow was furrowed as she left with a backpack and climbed aboard a bus to the city not far from their more humble accomodations.

The city itself didn't have the tallest towers, or the most bustling of places, but it was a crowded city nonetheless, if not a bit more unremarkable. The apartments were a bit pricey, but not outright unreasonable. She'd secured one near a community college and promptly set to the task of placing herself.

Her hair was black, but silky smooth, and fell with a middle part, the bangs around her ears and the rest just past her shoulderblades down her back. Her skin was fair, with faint color in her cheeks, and her lips were a curious pink. Her eyes were large, but bright and an intense sapphire that caught the attention of whoever she spoke to. She was quite, but had a friendly air about her and was inclined to speak rather than remain quiet. Still, once she'd gotten a notion in her mind for action, she had a steady sense of follow through.

She'd thought of becoming a photographer, and hastily drew up resumes. She hadn't much experience, but had a natural aptitude and a willingness to learn and improve on the skill she'd been given. This appealed to an up and coming newspaper, who hired her for a trial period of 1-3 monthes, depending on how long they lasted and if she could prove her skill. The work was enjoyable; the pay was an income, though not particularly high, and the hours were mostly on her own time, so a second job wasn't entierely out of mind.

She grew restless just sitting in the park; she'd much rather feed the ducks or take a leisurely walk or three around the jogging path.

"Hello," She offered up, gazing over the paper in her hands. She glanced up with an inquisitive expression, as if he had held the door open for conversation instead of herself.
"Oh," He responded, eyebrows twitching upwards as if to say 'You're speaking to me, I didn't realize.' "Hello"
Those pink lips curled up pleasantly at his apparent surprise and lack of grace in his spoken word. "You're quite shy, for someone who sat right across from me. Did you expect me not to say hello?"
"Ah, actually, most people have never said a word,"
"Really?" Her eyes twinkled with amusement and she seemed to find that quite a joke, that he often sat mere feet away at a table, and people would act as if he didn't exist. "How curious people can be...you may call me Alabaster, or Ally if you wish"
"I shall call you Ally then; my name is Richard. That's quite an uncommon name you have"
"Oh, it isn't my name, but you may call me that," She sounded amused again, more playful at his expense though she didn't seem like she was doing it to be cruel. His expressions of bewilderment and his slight shifting while he found something to say seemed a bit silly to her, and his more sheepish demeanor made her wish to try to catch him in a smile. He tried to play off the name smoothly, though failed miserably.
"May I ask your name then?"
"You may certainly ask, though you may not get an honest answer," She teased, and this produced a quirky smile from the man, as if not many wished to engage him as often as she. His hair was a bit unkempt, but appealingly mussy. She thought a young, absentminded professor might have the same appearence, perhaps a student in a rush. It was a blond the color of hay, and he had glasses with lines far too stern for his hesitent and almost gentle way of interacting. They were a shiny steel with thin lenses, and his eyes were an indecisive hazel which seemed moderately green with the sky blue sweater he wore.
"If I ask for an honest answer?" He ventured, and was rewarded with a far more open smile.
"Then you will certainly recieve one. My name is Clementine Laurel," She spoke more openly, Laurel pronounced "lore-ell" instead of "lorell" as one.

Gabby's birthday is today! Heck yes

BWEWJNN! O_O;

I just finished the series last night. I don't feel very good about the '19 years later' thing but I know it's kind of necessary...still, I feel like I want like a new book for every year leading up to that >< does that make me terrible? I love JK rowlings writing and I wouldn't mind if she came out with a bunch of other stuff besides lil side books to harry potter. I want another huge series. Yeah I know twilight is big but I know it wont be the same... I have the book but I can't read it yet. I'm held back a little.

When I first read how peacefully Tonks and Remus lay, I just started to cry. I had already cried some throughout the book but during that fight, the death of George... man...it wasn't quite as bad as the first time serious died, where I was already frustrated both by harry and that sort of empathy you get with the main character in his perspective where I was channeling his anger and pain and loss as well...

I stayed up a bit after 5 am, eyes wide, and rubbing at them furiously after I'd finished (again though, the last ending bit was sort of a weird let down...it's strange to know their kids and feel like I'm seeing a couple intimate moments of their life then have that ripped away. I'm curious about Scorpius).

For the record, this generation of peoples have the worst naming tastes. I'm sorry, Albus Severus Potter is a horrible name >< I cant picture that child at all...

Anyways, yay for snape not being totally horrible but still being kinda suck!

Wooo!

Baghhh!

I need books ;-;

Btw, everyone should be reading Charlaine Harris's book series, Trueblood series because it's totally awesome (I haven't finished it) though it does have alot of sex parts (not necessarily graphic), and the series starting with the book Grave Sight. That's more mystery, but still totally awesome.
READ THEM!

I tried hookahing (which is legal here) with some pear and mint flavored shisha. I really enjoyed the experience, but don't wish to do it regularly. I think once a week or less with a couple of friends would be nice.

What I'm more interested in is Salvia, so I'll be seeing how to obtain that and trying to decide who a sitter would be. I think Nick would be a bad idea, at least on his own, but am considering kaiti and maybe molly

Sam (Kioli's sister)
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1) work on Hobbies...

-cooking
-tea-making
-herb garden
-light reading



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Jessy(jane average)

-work on history with brother


Work on kidnapping story! Look over character concepts and work on kidnapper-psyche



Just little reminders for me. Also, thank you austin for all the comments :D I appreciate them and the support *hug* we gots to hang out sometime ;-; where are you currently my friend?

Besides the boy who woke me up (who, on reflection, though is older seems attractive), there's a really cute boy off to the side...kind of my taste cute. He's got sideburns (seriously? Firth-y almost...like that man in High Spirits except younger and less crude looking). He's pale, reddish brown hair...maybe irish? I don't know why but I've been on a severe irish drought AND kick lately so I'm very appreciative of his looks. Of course he could just be some boy with sideburns and reddish hair but that's fine too; still very nice to look at...off to my right...you can only glance too many times though before it becomes weird. You have to time these things right and every once and awhile in these situations I get caught and have to act like I was just staring off in space or at something behind them or just smile sheepishly. I've never really had anyone get mad about it or too weirded out...

Gahhh so cute >< mrrrrr! If I was some smooth, savvy chick I would go and ask to join his table or something...and today is definatly not the day I'm feeling sexy....;-; Well, it's a big campus, maybe I'll see him again-

Augh got caught stealing a peek. -___-; there's no noncreepy explanation...but he's drinking from the coffee place so maybe he likes hot cocoa too. Oo! Good idea, I can wake up some that way.


Off for now!

Since right now my ma drops me off at school, I have to get up at around 6:30, leave the house by 7-7:20 depending on the campus. It's exausting...bleh!

In IA campus, it's a little earlier class-wise so I dont have to wait as long. But, in cedar rapids, I arrived at 7:23 and my class wasn't until noon. I figured I'd sneak a nap in so I could be better rested for my class, and I intended just until 9:40. The library was closed when I went to it so I found one of those cubicle-desk sort of things with the privacy walls and set the alarm, falling asleep after a long wait (it's very noisy).

An hour later, someone shakes my shoulder and I dazedly looked up to see who it was. I was worried it was teacher, irate for napping in such a place. "Hey, do you have a class you should be in? " "No..." "You've been sleeping here for 2 hours," It was a group of guys of maybe 7-10, probably 7 though. I say 10 since 3 guys sort of meandered over before and I assume if they'd noticed they'd been hanging around that wall for awhile. "Ah, I came at 7, my classes dont start until 12" "Shiiiiit! I didn't even know school was OPEN that early!" I tried my hand at smiling (probably very frightening considering I was barely awake and I have top braces...I dont want to imagine that part. A few minutes later some guys made a noise at me and I looked over and was a bit more flatfaced than friendly. Still, I was a little shook up but amused at the first group of boys. I was worried that this may mark me somehow, you know? Reputation-wise. Kaiti said she thought it sounded funny, and that they probably wouldn't be all "hey, it's the girl who NAPS!" . If they do, I'll be all "I WAS the girl who napped, till you woke me up! ohhhh!" and try to play it off. It could have been alot worse I guess, and I was honestly very tired. I think there's worse social foi pais then sneaking a nap in cubicle-desks nobody is using... (I was sitting in the chair so it wasn't THAT weird).

now I gotta go waste time and eat something before my stomach punishes me by imploding.

Today I requested nonpersonal information about my biological parents. I'll contact the Vermont Adoption Registry for personal information, but after I sign a consent form that alerts my parents that I'm requesting. More details later, maybe. Probably not. Upset in an rp wif tami...I dont want babies.

Breaking: Iowa City School District on Lockdown While Police Search for 'Active Shooter'
by: T.M. Lindsey
Mar 24, 2008 at 09:10 AM
Update: The lockdowns at the Iowa City School District schools and University of Iowa campus were lifted once administrators received information that the suspect in question had been apprehended. Initial reports indicate that one woman and four children were found dead at the suspect's residence, 629 Barrington Road, which is located on the east side of Iowa City.
Reports also indicate that the suspect, Steven Sueppel, 42, had fled the scene of the crime in his van, which was discovered on Interstate 80 between West Branch and Iowa City, where it had crashed and was found burning. The Cedar Rapids Gazette and Iowa City Press-Citizen have more on-site reports regarding the incidents.

Authorities in Iowa City alerted the UI community about a gunman in the Iowa City area and the UI put out an alert at 8:02 a.m. The text of the message reads as follows:
"An active shooter is reported to be in the Iowa City Area. He is a white male in his mid-40s driving a 1998 tan Toyota Sienna minivan, Iowa license plate 501-BLO. If you see it, call 911 from a safe location to report shooter sighting."

However, there is some discrepancy as to the UI's use of "active shooter." Sgt. Troy Kelsay of the Iowa City police told the Gazette that he was not sure where the University of Iowa got the information about there being an "active shooter." He said to his knowledge, no firearms were involved, but he was not sure what Sueppel had access to.

Nonetheless, all Iowa City school district schools went into lockdown at 8:20 a.m. until administrators confirmed that the individual the police were seeking was apprehended. The district announced at 9:35 a.m. that the lockdown had been lifted.

UI spokesman Steve Parrott told the Gazette that the UI issued its alert after Iowa City police notified UI police. "There's clearly a heightened expectation of when we're going to alert people," he said, a reference to last year's Virginia Tech and this year's Northern Illinois shootings.

The alert did heighten some anxieties at West High School, where I am employed as a full-time English teacher.(See earlier live report below).

After the shooting incident at Columbine High School in Colorado, West High School implemented its own emergency plan for dealing with "intruders" in the building. When administrators announce that faculty members should initiate emergency procedures, the assumption is that there is an intruder in the building, and staff should immediately execute the plan of action.

Consequently, during the first 15 minutes of the alert, it was presumed that there was an intruder in the building, which did heighten anxieties among students. The "not knowing" aspect exacerbated their anxiety as well as mine. While squatting down in the corner of the darkened classroom with 25 completely silent ninth-grade students, my eyes were solely focused on a class set of Tim O'Brien's "The Things They Carried." The only thing I could think of was a line from the title story of the book: "Imagination is a killer."

Not until more specific information regarding the incident, which was given at 8:35 a.m., did students and faculty members feel any sense of relief, but the lockdown remained in effect for another hour.

Earlier post: Reporting live from inside West High School in Iowa City

At 8:20 a.m. this morning, the administration at West High School initiated its emergency protocol for incidents involving potential intruders. After an announcement over the intercom, teachers locked all the doors and students took cover in the classrooms.

Initially, teachers and students were anxious and apprehensive, assuming the intruder was in the building. After 15 minutes of silence, the administration announced that the University of Iowa and ICCSD went into alert after reports of an "active shooter" in the community.

Initial reports indicate that police are in pursuit of Steven Sueppel, 42, who allegedly shot family members at their residence in Iowa City. Sueppel, a former vice president and controller of Hills Bank & Trust, was recently indicted for embezzling and laundering more than $500,000 during a seven-year period.

9:30 a.m.: The lockdown has been lifted and students have been instructed to move on to their next period class.


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comments from a news site:

Five family members of an Iowa banker recently indicted on federal embezzlement and money laundering charges were found dead in their home today in Iowa City, Iowa. The victims included the man's wife and their four children. Police think the banker may have died a short time later in a fiery car crash on a nearby highway. The Iowa City Police Department said in a news release that officers went to the home of 42-year-old Steven Sueppel after receiving a 911 call at 6:31 a.m. from a cell...
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Strange how losers like this always think it's best to "take out" the family before killing themselves .. oh - that's right .. I said "loser"!
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weisisobese 1:09 PMMark As Violation
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Yep,loser!My condolences to the extended family,what a horrible nightmare for them.
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lauras_webproject 1:16 PMMark As Violation
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Killing your family and yourself is not worth over money you stole. He should've paid his consequences, served time in prison, and let his poor family live!!
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lazylady75 1:17 PMMark As Violation
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What a coward!
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jBx82 1:22 PMMark As Violation
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Whenever I hear of a situation like this where the spouse is despondent and kills the family as well as himself I can't help but think what an egotist he must have been. To think that the family would rather be dead than live without him, is narcissism to the nth degree. He was more than likely a controlling SOB as well. That sort of goes with the character of a jackass like this.
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Reedypond 1:28 PMMark As Violation
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Hm... well I guess we finally found a story that hip hop can't be blamed for.
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bbaxton 1:43 PMMark As Violation
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None of us know what we speak? Yes, he had a huge ego, it came crashing down, and in his twisted mind, he decided it would be best for his children and family to be murdered rather than deal with the shame. It's all ego.The thing is, lady, is that embezzlement is not a crime of hatred. It is a crime of greed. To be able to embezzle, you have to be immoral and wrong, but to murder your family, you have to have that capability in your heart. To compare yourself to him is ridiculous. You were wrong and greedy, he's a murderer. Slight difference, don't ya think?
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StupidityRealm 1:44 PMMark As Violation
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There are many paths to be chosen in times of desperation .
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3Labman7 1:47 PMMark As Violation
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None of us have made horrible mistakes? We've all made mistakes. To even compare yourself to this guy... you embezzled, you are morally corrupt. But that doesn't make you a murderer. This guy had it in his heart and soul to murder. Please don't compare the two
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StupidityRealm 1:47 PMMark As Violation
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If he did it then he is a coward. His family didn't break the law - he did. Why did they have to die for his mistakes? They won't have to worry about running into him in heaven - there's no place there for him. He'll be on the hot seat sitting in front of the Devil himself.
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janicepielert 1:49 PMMark As Violation
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hmmmmmmmmmm.........Ok, the Obvious Question no one is Asking: Did he kill his family and then himself, or did someone ELSE kill his family and then him, in order to Cover their Collective Derriers from Prosecution when this Fella Talked? To Be Framed, or to Be Guilty, That is the Question....
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civalcmedicinecougar3 1:52 PMMark As Violation
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it was $$$; he blamed them for "causing" him to steal, they were a burden. He wanted to provide for the family? Sorry, he wanted to keep up with the Jones. Three kids and a wife, gone because this jerk wanted to look good in society. $$$$$$
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slipmahoney 1:55 PMMark As Violation
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This is a terrible tragedy. Please join me in saying a prayer for the family, friends and neighbors left to deal with this horrific situation.
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elle4141 1:57 PMMark As Violation
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someone did make a very valid point. money laundering is not usually a single-person affair. someone may have wanted him silent, and anyone he might have told about it. before you go and call the guy a loser, he may have simply not been able to escape. if he killed his own family, why not do himself in the same way at the same time? whats with the car crash? still takes that presence of mind to yank the wheel to flip a car as it does to pull a trigger one more time.
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cablemirc 1:58 PMMark As Violation
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WHY do people feel the need to take someone with them? If you wanna kill yrself, then just kill YOURSELF...leave the rest of the world out of it. Your relatives dont want to be on TV for THAT. Trust me, you'll feel better afterwards
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redneck in nyc 1:58 PMMark As Violation
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janicepielert said "If he did it then he is a coward. His family didn't break the law - he did. Why did they have to die for his mistakes? They won't have to worry about running into him in heaven - there's no place there for him. He'll be on the hot seat sitting in front of the Devil himself."Your thoughts and feelings are exactly as mine. Condolences to the family members left to absorb this horrible tragedy.
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heresthething 2:00 PMMark As Violation
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before you go calling somone a loser, someone had a good point here. money laundering is hardly ever a single person affair. funny thing is, 500k over how many years? that isnt much money, overall. if it's part of something more, though..... what if someone just wanted him silent? if he had murder suicide in his mind, what prevents one more pull of a trigger? it takes the same mindset to yank the wheel of the van to roll it as it does to pull the trigger one more time. ever thought the guy mighta been trying to get away?
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Who's cell phone called the police? I think that would tell us a lot too. If it was him, was it a small last minute effort to "save" his family? Was it a neighbor? And if so, why didn't they identify themselves? That part seems a little fishy to me. I agree with elle4141, this is a terrible tragedy, and I join you in a prayer for their family and community.
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The Obvious Question: Did This Young Iowa Banker Slaughter his Wife and four children, then Commit Vehicular Suicide in some twisted Freudian Attempt at Guilty Retribution or "Despair"...........Or Was this Entire Family Executed In order to Cover Up This Young Iowa Banker's ties to Certain Unnamed Individuals and/or Corporations who Wished to Remain Unnamed and Unknown in the Federal Grand Jury Endictment--Heartless, Soul-less individuals who Would do ANYTHING to Cover up the Truth??????To Be Murdered and Guiltlessly Blamed, Or to Be Homicidally and Suicicidally Challenged , that is the Question!What ever happened to Innocent until Proven Guilty?Facts Before Fiction?Truth over Fabrication?Reliable Testimony over Heresay and Rumor Mongering?Integrity in the face of Opposition?Doing the Right Thing?Ah, If only we could Leave the Judgements to God,If only He who was without Sin were to Cast the First Stone, and not the Multitude Who are Filled with it!If only the Moneychangers were Cast Out of the Temple, and the Scribes Wrote the Truth!If Only people were Valued for their Inner Beauty and Good Works, Not the Paper on their wall, Plastic Surgery Anatomies, or Shiny Car Bumpers!If only We Relied on the Natural Minerals and Plants God Gave us for Food and Healing, and not Deadly Chemical Cocktails Prescribed by Revolving-Door Hippocratic-Oath-Breaking Physicians!If Only People would do their Just Due Dilligence and Learn, rather than Blindly Follow!If Only People could Understand that God Made People of all Colors, Creeds, Races, Cultures, Backgrounds, sizes, Belief Systems, and Physiological Differentiations Because He Likes Variety-That he Loves ALL of his Children, not just a select genotypical Few! That Forgiveness Is There For The Asking! That God's Love for Man and Woman is ColorBlind, Open, Freely Given, and Radically Unbiased-And So too should Our Love for One another Be!So, I dream and Pray for Unity and Undersanding. Amen
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in iowa city? i went to school there--what a great place. too bad this happened in such a picturesque and fantastic city. that said, fortheboys, your comments are lost on people who have never had to experience that sort of pain. anyone, and i mean anyone, can do hurtful things given the right circumstances.
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It's amazing and sad how many have reached a conclusion on this tragedy. I'm sorry for what you went through ForTheBoyz66 but do you and everyone else making a judgement have all the facts and know the complete truth? No, I didn't think so.
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To Fortheboyz66:I'm sorry to read that you are unable to forgive yourself and that it is a struggle for you. Well, I just thank God you had a second chance to make things right. Don’t you wonder why you had a second chance? Perhaps to show your family the importance of fortitude, strength, and that no matter how bad things get, it is possible to survive and do something with your life. Life is so precious, forgive yourself, love yourself, that is what your creator and your family wants for you. God Bless!
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elle4141 2:16 PMMark As Violation
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FortheBoyz66: Although I haven't had the misfortune of making horrible mistake as you put it, I can only sympathize with what you have gone through. I admire your courage of owning up to your mistake, and that tells a lot about you. You are not a bad person. You just had the misfortune of making a mistake, and that until now, you feel sorry for. Let the past bury itself, and get on with your life. I'm pretty sure you learned from your mistake, and thankful that you are alive. May God Bless you.
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One more twist to this story. At his initial court appearance last month for embezzlement, Sueppel admitted that he spent nearly half of the money he stole from his employer on coke.
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Here's my thought.... if he indeed, did kill himself in a CAR ACCIDENT, which resulted in a FIRE (which less face it... is very painful way to go), then this is a sad end to a sorry tale. But, what's to say that this guy didn't kill his entire family himself, and faked his death... I will feel a lot better once this guy's dental records are matched to his known records. It just seems kind of conveniet that this minivan caught on fire in this accident. There was a case (I think it was on A&E's American Justice), where this man killed his wife and then supposedly killed himself by setting the house on fire. Turns out, the husband had killed a man (with a build similar to his) and got away with murder for 20 years. It wasn't until he committed another crime that the police realized that he had committed the earlier murders.
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Ignore my last few posts. Looking at them makes me upset at myself -_-; I'll still post some spanish stuff. Basically I lurves my camera. Anyways

Today our school went on lockdown because a vice bank president who had embezzled money went on the run after killing his 4 family members, I think wife and three children... But we didn't know this at first. Dr.Arganbright announced it was a school lockdown, that it wasn't a drill, and then our entire class went to sit in a corner, the lights went off, and the door locked. I wasn't scared the first few minutes, like most, but after about 10 minutes whispers were hushed and more nervous. I figured it was a kid from chicago; yeah, it's a stereotype, but all our school fights tend to be from kids who moved in from chicago or come from lowerclass areas (I know about education and stuff like that but I'm reporting the event here, and I'll save the class bias later sometime...I'm not upperclass myself, but those with poorer housing and living conditions are more prone to violence. At least, in our school).
I grew nervous and anxious, and texted my mom to let her know we were on lockdown. I was thinking over friendships and lloyd, and things I might like to do but felt vaguely satisfied with my life. Iknow I've tried to do all I can, live life to the fullest, and I was most saddened by relationships I wanted to strengthen. I was thinking on this more when they announced that it was a man in a toyota, driving and armed who had killed his family, through Iowa City. Not that he wasn't a concern, but chances of him bursting into a school randomly (the entire district was on lockdown) was slimmer, soI relaxed and ended up working on my artwork. Still, it made me fonder of meeting lloyd...I dont want to die before I meet him...

I'd like an rp where, you know...part of the character development was them actually FALLING IN LOVE...instead of just SUDDENLY IN LOVE or already in love with them...

Or situations where they're forced to have sex...like the only way to escape a room is to have sex, or save the world is to have sex, or...just that sort of thing.  Why does it have to be like that?

You know, I'm tempted just to have my character fall out of love...it'd cause more drama, but it'd be way more interesting than what it is now. 

I have this theory that I'm sure is wrong, that if someone writes something dirty in a blog/ journal, it gets blocked. So here I go!

Penis. Penis penis penis.

PenguinTush44 (9:23:13 PM): Bonnie-*she looks from side to side, blinking for a long moment and then she looks down at the grabage* [alright no one is looking...It's so gross...but...I'm so hungry.] *he slips his hand down into the grabage and comes up with a half eaten hot dog from the school lunch, biting her lip, then taking a soft bite of the hot dog*
PenguinTush44 (7:19:44 PM): Jester-*He stood ontop of the stage, waving to the many, wearing a colorful shirt since he was a nararrator today, instead of being a character in the little plays they did for money. He had a small puppet on his hand for entertainment. He had short ruffllish black hair, the bangs follwoing down into his twinkling brown eyes. He had a little ruff along his chin, mainly cause his last blade had broken and he hadn't gotten a new one yet. He was young and tall, his hair cropped up short revealing soft, slightly pale skin. He was skinny, but lithe, able to do most acrobatic feats. He chuckles to to the crowd, hitting the little doll on the head with a paper scroll. He glanced to the girl at the desk as he steps aside, letting the actors come up to play*
PenguinTush44 (9:25:21 PM): joo get that?
jennychan4u (9:25:25 PM): yesh :3
jennychan4u (9:25:30 PM): is the jester clopin or someone similar?
PenguinTush44 (9:25:37 PM): similar
jennychan4u (9:25:53 PM): ((we saving clopin and esme for baby time?))
jennychan4u (9:26:03 PM): ((tho jester sounds just as cute))
PenguinTush44 (9:26:09 PM): no
jennychan4u (9:26:21 PM): ((no...? they dead?)
PenguinTush44 (9:26:31 PM): ((yeah))
jennychan4u (9:26:37 PM): ((darn it ><))


GODDAMN IT!>< Not only am I playing a guy, AGAIN (I hate playing men...I just whip them up out of nowhere and forget about them later. I'm not interested in being a man.), but clopin is DEAD AFTER GODDAMN TOO LONG!

I swear, I will not rp for a week if this guy ends up wimpy, shy, sensitive, overly sweet, or such a dramatic past that it's a pain to play him.

Seriously. Clopin isn't like that. And Clopin is what I freaking wanted.

Jameson asked me out. Said no, of course. Seems incestious, also have boyfriend. Or lack there of -.-;

Cory visited today. wanted to stay; am exausted. Sent home with cuddles.

Tami lied about Clopin.
jennychan4u (5:19:00 PM): I'm here :3
jennychan4u (5:19:05 PM): posties clopin out of love
PenguinTush44 (5:20:28 PM): Clopin-*dances on the pulpit*
jennychan4u (5:20:32 PM): >> you're mean...
PenguinTush44 (5:20:33 PM): you work from there

So, screw it. I'm so tired of wanting to rp fun characters and her being meh about it. I'm not into any of the rps we're doing right now. I don't really know what to do...

Apparently, just crappily post and let her do whatever she wants to do.

Mini fight with lloyd. back to speaking but currently am not talking. He's interested with something else, obviously.